Alone
9:17 p.m. - 2005-02-18

Alone
Carissa Parker, 2-16-04

Standing alone
Off to the side
My cries
Drowned out by the music and songs

Crying alone
“Somebody help me!”
And no one sees

They have bigger problems
I’m less important
They have harder lives
Why should they care about me?

My friends have other friends, or each other
I’m not needed
Why burden them with my problems?
They don’t need to know

I’m not too important
No one should care
I’ll smile and nod
No words shared

I’ll act, play the part
Maybe they won’t see
Through the stage makeup and masks
Who I am, who I’ve become

Perhaps they won’t see the tears
Or wounds on my heart
Maybe they won’t see the pain

I’m living a lie
Yes, it hurts
But
Somewhere out there
Someone else hurts more

My problems are miniscule
In comparison to the world
Why should anyone care?

Everyone has their own troubles
I’m just another face
In this world

If I was gone –
Would I be missed?
If I ran -would they take notice?

My smile fades the moment I enter my room
My eyes fill with tears
My heart full of fears
Why should anybody care?

Is there no way?
Am I alone?
Is life as great
As they make it sound?

Life isn’t grand
Life ain’t easy…

I wish it would end
Before I do.

Ask me in an e-mail if you want to know what it means...

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