Invisible
9:23 p.m. - 2004-12-07

Invisible
Carissa Parker, Wednesday, November 3, 2004

I told them I was invisible, I did not expect them to believe me.
I thought they would see into my heart, see into my eyes, notice me, and just see.

But they did not…

I was ignored, I needed help and my friends did not give it.
They said they would be there for me, to help me out of the pit.

When I needed them most, they did not care.
When I finally opened up, they were not there.

Shaking silently, sitting in the corner, shunned by those who walked past.
Brothers and sisters ignored me, when I had finally taken off my mask.

Deviated, neglected, brushed aside, and left alone by those who claimed to be my friends.
Those who said they cared, those who said they loved me, did not try to make amends.

Those who I thought loved me, weren’t there
Even when they promised, they would always care.

Sitting the corner, crying inconspicuously, no one noticed the tears the streamed down my cheeks as I watched everyone else have fun.
I was sick of hiding my pain, living lies, but when I finally came out, they disregarded me, for me it was over, it is done.

I sent a message, I thought they got it; however, they did not.
Maybe I was being selfish, but I thought they would discover it was their help I sought.

I cried my tears in silence, in loneliness. I did not know they could ever hurt me
I always thought they loved me, and cared, I always thought they would see.

But when I took off the plastic smile and showed them what was real
When I took away the veil, and my pain I revealed.

I expected them to care, ask me what was wrong.
I expected them to do something; I thought they loved me all along.

I showed them my pain, my affliction, and my hurt
They did not accept me, they left my burnt.

Broken hearted, neglected, brushed aside, ignored, shunned, eschewed, snubbed, deviated,
Left by those who said they loved me, I felt berated…
Left hurt by those who said they would always care…
Broken hearted, teary eyed, running away again, hiding in corners, I will continue the plastic smile I wear…

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